I GOT INTO STONEHILL, I GOT INTO STONEHILL, I GOT INTO STONEHILL! HOLY SHIT!

my dad made a comment that i should have applied to harder schools...hmm...some food for thought!

six for six? i think so!
bradley.
saint anselm.
unh.
merrimack.
roger williams.
stonehill.
bryant?
northeastern?
please! AH!

mar 25th.stonehill.
mar 27th.bradley.
april 4th. unh
mar 21st-bryant?
april-roger williams
visited merrimack.
ah. i love my life!!
 

ACCEPTED TO SAINT ANSELM!!
WOOO (:

ACCEPTED TO BRADLEY UNIVERSITY!
AHHHHHHH!

I honestly do not want to start school tomorrow.
Actually, I want to go for the first two weeks and then quit, as in everything else that I do.
I hate this feeling SO much.
i Do not feel comfortable at school, and that's what it comes down to.
felt way comfortable at tutoring, the mall, anywhere but at school.
why?
because people talk about me behind my back.
and i hate it so much.
and they spread rumors about me.
honestly, what did i do to offend you guys so much?
and. college applications and sat's.
and ap stats.
kill me please!
on another note.
it was so good seeing becca and emily and hanna and dina and mayesha and sama <3
they're my true friends.
i love you all!
and of course, li and i are best friends.
sunday we hung out for like, six hours and today we went to the mall and bought clothes and are biffles.

and Everwood <3

Gilmore Girls.

1. bryant university
2. northeastern university
3. roger williams university
4. unh
5. bradley
6. salve regina university
Sweet (:
hopefully looking at bentley and endicott soon!

so only mayesha really reads this, which is fine! love you <3
but senior year schedule:
english 4, chemistry, accounting 1, sociology, ap euro and ap stats.
so pissed off at teh school right now, spent forty five minutes fixing my schedule and i still didn't get what i wanted.
i would've LIKED to have ap stats, ap euro, accounting 1, great books, anthropology and chemistry, but whatever.
easy-ish second semester after ap exams.
hectic first semester, english 4, chemistry, ap euro and ap stats. kill me now please.
sat's and act's, college apps. all that fun stuff.
college choices:
1. bryant university
2. northeastern
3. unh
4. bradley possibly.
loooking at roger williams and salve regina on friday, i hope i really like newport, because honestly providence sucks.
so we'll see (;
i still lovelovelove bryant though!
summer. ending so soon.
not good at all.
15 days agh!

So. Many. Things. Going. On. AHHHH (melt down mode soon)

1. SAT studying
2. ACT studying
3. AP Euro studying
4. AP Stats studying.
5. SAT Subject Test-World History (MAYBE)
6. SAT Subject Test-US History (MAYBE)
7. Flute. Piano. Possibly Voice Lessons?
8. Applications. Applications, Applications
9. FRIENDS AND FAMILY.
10. LIFE (oh yeah, non-existent)
ha, i actually feel pretty good about doing all of these things though. so far, i haven't done anything towards scholarly stuff, but i'm starting as of July 30th, 2008. i am going to get at least 1800 on SAT's, heck, 2000! i'm going to get at least a 28 on the ACTS, and the first time too. i'm going to get all A-'s and A's in my classes this year so i have no finals to take. and life is going to be good and i am going to get into the colleges of my choice.
which so far consist of Northeastern, UNH, and Bradley. Northeastern is a reach school, UNH and Bradley are moderate schools. i'm visiting Bryant, Salve Regina, Roger Williams and Endicott, and maybe Bentley with my aunt. sweetness (:
I'm definitely leaning towards something along the lines of Intnl Business/Finance/Management with a minor in history. or a major in finance or management or something like that with a minor in history or intnl affairs. first, i need to see if i enjoy business and intnl related things though (:
Ha. love it.
So yeah. tutoring=freaking amazing. i feel so accomplished in the past two days, its heaven.
love inbal and li, so much <3

so many things to write about.
i will be a senior in high school, holy shit.
secondly, i am SO excited for college, and SO nervous and scared for college.
applications freak me out but at the same time i jump up and down because i'm so excited to get out of high school.
i have regrets about 9th and 10th grade of high school, but at the same time loved high school (the good parts, jprom, friends, apush)
THREE <3 i love that number so much, i am so happy about my apush score, so happy!
it means that i just need to calm down, STUDY more because i do know how to study, and then i will do well on them.
hopefully the sylvan camp will help next week to help me study for the sat's which i need to sign up for in october, and hopefully i can get a better score on them than last time, but i'm not complaining about my first score, just after the ap exam grade i know i can do better.
um, i visited peoria this past week, which was very emotional but amazing at the same time.
i learned a lot about my mom's childhood, and even more about my grandma's family. i love grams so much, and she loves me a ton too.
um, i love my cousins of course, and my aunt is different, but i love aunt kayyyy <3
i am very tired and bored, but its alright. this summer has been a wicked weird one but a good one.
i'm doing college applications and essay writing, tutoring from sylvan.
studying for sats and hopefully the acts, and just enjoying my life.
i miss my papa so much, always will and it won't get much better than this, but whatever.
graduation 2009-peoria family, hopefully other dad's family members too!
then august 1st-ish cousin is coming up! and hopefully going down there next summer! LOVE THEM SO MUCH, oh and delaware beach house for july fourth, sweett
i think that's about it.
comment yo!

so this past week has been amazing!
except for finals and school of course.
not talking about those at all anymore thank goodness!
but, tuesday after finals i went out to panera with sama, nilam and emily, which was wicked fun.
then we studied for six hours at my house, which was also actually fun, and frustrating, lol.
then, wednesday, i had my pre-calc final and got dismissed at nine thirty, came home and chilled, then went to fairgrounds and hung out with the sixth grade teachers and emily. went to bicentennial and saw prem there, awkward, AND WITH HIS GF! ha (:
then, we hung out and saw more teachers, then we watched ntnl treasure 2 and she left ):
thursday, i had a meeting at one, went grocery store shopping with faithy! so much fun! then we went swimming at her place with emily, dropped her off and went down to the burlington mall and got crepes and tried dresses on, of course.
then today i woke up at eight and chilled, then cooked/baked with faithy and emily until two, then had the party!
fun times <3 also played neighborhood kickyball of course!
so much fun, good summer so far.
i need plans for next week though, its going to be sad with everyone away.
and i don't think mayesha wants to really hang out with me this summer. boo.

i miss my papa.
i wish you would give us a chance for once, and realize that there is something true in front of us, and  if not, then so be it. but i wish you would take the leap like i am willing, but i can only go so far without having to turn back and look for you.
i want good grades.
i want to be five again.
i am happy for real, but my heart is broken into two.
i miss you always papa.
you are my life, always.

i'm going to miss li and mayesha when we go to college. it just hit me that next year ill be a senior, applying to college, then the year after i'll actually be IN college.
oh dear.
bring me back to when i was five please.

oy, haven't written for a while (:
school is pretty good actually, last report card i got an A- in apush, A in latin and band, B in english and C in physics. got a physics tutor and its been helping a lot, he isn't that bad of a teacher now.
i'm getting my progress report this week, i have an a in latin and apush, a- in physics and a in band, and hopefully an a- in english.
i'm going to get all a's this semester dude (:
um. papa isn't doing so great, he's going downhill.
we're trying to get a medical person in to help out at his house couple of times a week, but we'll see what happens.
hannukah was this past week, it was okie dokies. got lots of gift cards and what not.
goign to florida christmas eve and seeing aunt dede, matty and danny on christmas day, so excited. haven't seen them since last summer.
and hopefully going to peoria over april vacation <33
um. my aunt and uncle are getting a divorce, finally.
i love you auntiee.
hm... i don't know what else is going on.
flute, flute choir, ski team.
basically that's it.
i hate band, those people in it need to get a life.
but someone's nice to me and actually talks to me, woot.
um.
chelseawamy turned eighteen yesterday, love you bestie!!
um. back to six essays for apush and physics project,
<33

i need need need to get over him.
really badly, he's made these past two days awful.
seriously, why did i have to fall so deep in just four days?
its terrible, i didn't know it was possible after meeting someone last wednesday.
ughughugh.
and it isn't good. he lives in chicago, he hasn't even contacted me when i left him a text message, and a facebook message, and he's "married" on facebook to the other girl in texas.
I KNEW he liked her and the florida girl.
why am i so stupid and blind?
and no one else has contacted/texted me either, way to make me feel like complete crap.
i hate it so much.
it was mrs. b's last day, my life is just sucky.
my bf doesn't have a gf now, i feel terrible for him.
and i don't know what i feel about it yet.
i thought i would be wicked happy, because i could now have a chance with him, but now i'm not sure that i even like him that way.
i feel like i've been talking to a different person/vice versa for the past two years, and i feel like we don't even really truly know each other.
and i want to get to know him more.
because my guy life is just sucky.
and i just hate my life right now.
i'm so sad and depressed, and i want to just get out of this stupid school and stupid city and travel the world, go to a different school, go to college and be able to travel the world and meet new people from all over the country and the world.
i feel trapped, and i feel like i can't do anything about it, it just sucks ass.
whatever.
leave it here i suppose.

so, i started school last last wednesday. it was great, waking up at 5:30 every morning, woo. but i get rides with ally b. again this year, i love her (: she's going to college next year ): senior year is going to be really sucky without anyone except for mayesha and li and glenny. oh well, i'll live.
uhm, classes are wicked time consuming this year. spent five hours on my apush essay. physics is stupid and pointless, we're not learning anything in that class, oh well. latin 1 is good, i like it (: but i don't sit remotely close to li anymore, oh well.
apush is amazing, best class EVER <33
this past weekend so far was the besttt. friday evening i got dismissed at 12:45 with ally b. so we didn't have to go to the pep rally, stupid. got home at 1:01 and did nothing, had a quick dinner then picked up INBALLY <33 i loveeee her and missed her sooooo much, besties! went to the game with bryann and brittany, best friends forever. streaker and we won 19-6! haha (: in your face ugly northies!! um. came home with inbally and bryanna and katie came over and we hott tubbed it and had ice cream, then we talked to anna who we miss and i talked to sam and peoples earlier, then brittany got here at 10:45 so we just talked after bry and katie left, then mi madre and i dropped inbally off and i went to bed at midnigth and babysat the foti's today at 8 in the morning, loveee them though <3 got home around 10:40 and did some school work, then went to the library with lshap and mayesha, and went to kfc at 3:30 for lunch, and came home now and its starting to thunderrrrr. ahh!
leave it here babessss <3

this weekend was the best. it stood for everything crappy that went on these past few years, with all of the sickness and drama, because for once. we all had a freaking bomb ass time, and i enjoyed it tremendously. it was bittersweet, i was wicked happy to be with everyone and sad, because i knew deep down that it would probably be the last b'nai mitzvah that my papa would be at.
not saying that, oh now he can die. i would never want him to die, but his time is near, and i'm trying to accept that. but heck, what do i know, he might live to be 104.
who knows, all i know is that i love him, and i cherish all the amazing times we've had together. and seriously, family helps him so much. between last weekend and this weekend he almost looked like the papa i knew before his sickness, and i am so proud of him for coming such a long way. and i'm proud of my brother too, he won't ever know how proud i am, beacuse i cannot put it into words.
and my family is freaking amazing. and if anyone makes fun of how much fun i had with old people and dancing with old people, go to hell.
shchneider. freid. abramson reunion, 8.23.07 to 8.28.07, gonna be off the hook <33
blood is thicker than water. i love them all ten times more, and my heart grew to the size of a basketball, i love you all so much <33
thank you for putting purpose into my life.

thursday went to canobie with evan (: So much fun! Got so scared on some of the rides though, overall great day off.
friday i think i worked all day, then saturday and sunday i worked. funn!
yesterday woke up around eight, got ready eventually and saw mr. jajah at 3:30ish, then got my hair and eyebrows done and mi madre was there (: worked 5:45 to close. awful night, that girl needs to quit or go die. seriously. don't feel like getting into it right now though.
today i woke  up at 8:45!! sweetness.got ready and hung out, then had pt at 11:30 and no more anymore ): then i went to alecs and got shoes for this weekend, then got lunch and went to kohl's. came home and practiced torah portion, hanging out and getting ready soon, then pictures with the family at seven. tomorrow work 9:45 to 5:45 and nails at six, then picking up the TORONTO DVD, FINALLY!
sweetness (:
then thursday doing bar mitzvah things and practicing, working 3:45 to close and friday doing bar mitzvah things all day!
SO EXCITED FOR THIS WEEKEND <33 family soon!
leave comments please.
mayesha, we have to hang out at least ONCE before summer ends!

friday went to the mall with inbally and brittany, best everr (: got two more tops and a pair of pants i believe...sweetness. saturday i worked 9:45 to 4:15, then i came home and went over to the walter's and it was ok at first, then evan and i started tlaking and stuff and it was sweet. then jordan needed to be picked up from work at 10 so they made a bet that i should pick him up, so i askedh im if he wanted to go to a party and he was like, sureee and it was really funny. hahhahaa, i love those gatherings so much, best friends for life <33 seriously. got home at 11ish, then i couldn't fall asleep until one because alice gave evan and i the caffeinated coffee instead of decaf, gahaha. woke up at nine yesterday and worked 10:45 to 4:45. boom at four, so crazy then. haha, then i came home and hung out, then went over to lshaps house and stayed the night. today i woke up at nine, had breakfast there and then we went to the mall and just walked around. working today from 3;45 to close. tomorrow i have huntington, physical therapy and music lessons. wednesday i work, thursday NOTHING. friday work, and so on so forth. i need shoes for saturday and for next weekend, and i need to do something wickedly fun on thursday. give me plans please!
haha, loveeeed saturday so much though <333